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David Venus's avatar

You sound extremely courageous getting through that childhood Tamsin. Must’ve been really confusing for you.

DO NOT PUBLISH (I’m looking at you, adult version of me!) 😂 Love that.

I don’t know anything of physics. I’m a romantic Tamsin I have galaxies inside me inside which are libraries where substack may make up a shelf or two. 🌌💖

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I used to look for validation from my father, having never received it in childhood and then one day I just stopped, realising he would never change, and I became really, really low contact. Then he died and the sense of relief was immense. But it does mean that I can now publish all my angsty thoughts and feelings about him. I wish I’d had the courage when he was alive as a sort of yah boo sucks to him.

I think I’ve learnt now to appreciate myself for myself. It’s nice to get positive feedback but not necessary. I recently posted about my first poem at 13, one that sat in my notebook with a massive DO NOT PUBLISH next to it. And I took that step and published it anyway expecting people to not like it and some did. That was good.

Is Substack bigger than me, I want to say of course it is - physically it is, it holds more words than I do, more ideas day to day. But my corner in it is small and and comfortable. Am I bigger than Substack, yes of course I am, it is not ‘necessary’ but useful, whereas I am both necessary AND useful. 😜

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